Restlessness

Solitude does a number on one's mind. Makes one restless and reconsider life's path - what if this had hapened instead of this ... would be life be any different ... any better ? would I be living in the usa or somewhere else .. what would I be doing right now? would I have been happier or sadder ... married or not, with child or without ... the possibilities are endless.

Thank god for aadit who grounds me in the reality of today .. or else I would end up in a mental asylum thinking about the supposed alternate life paths.

Singlehood

I'm a temporary single mom for a year since Vinay is off to graduate school. I admit, I do like parts of being temporarily single. The house is clean and things stay exactly where they are supposed to :-) ; I can watch whatever channel I want on TV and eat whatever I feel like making.

But it's hard too. Especially when Aadit keeps asking for his papa. And when he is sick. That's the toughest. I have to keep reminding myself that countless women have done this before me, some for years at end.

Bonus - I know now how to operate an electric screwdriver, throw out the trash, locate and fix the fuse box and get my car's oil changed :-)

2011

2011 has brought with it a new challenge. Vinay is off to Boston for a year to pursue the famed Sloan Fellows Program at MIT. Aadit and I chose to stay back in Fremont because I want Vinay to be free to study without distractions and I don't really care for the east coast, weather-wise or life-style wise. So far, it's not been too bad! Aadit and I have our routine ... with the added bonus that papa is not here to mess up mommy's clean and organized house ;-)

Fremont weather is horrendous. It's raining in June! Runing my kitchen garden. Hope it clears up soon!